"The Spectacular Spektor" - Newsweek

  • Jesse Ellison:This summer you’re going back to Russia for the first time in 22 years. Why has it been so long?
  • Regina Spektor:A combination of circumstances and opportunity. For a while, you couldn’t go, and even if you could, my family didn’t have the money. That was true for years. Then, when we did have the money, there were other things, like college. And if you’re going to have one family vacation, maybe it’s not going to be the intense, emotional one. Maybe you just want to go to New Jersey and sit on the beach. Because so much time went by, in my mind it became this very distant, complicated place. I started getting scared that all my memories would go away if I went there.
  • Jesse Ellison:You felt your new memories would erase the old ones?
  • Regina Spektor:My whole ambivalence has been that you remember things one way as a child and when you look at them as an adult, it replaces them. I want a signed guarantee saying, “Your previous memories shall remain untouched and unharmed. We will catalog every one and you will have just as many.” But memory is its own narrative. Even if 50 people saw the same thing happen at an intersection and they went home and wrote about it, their stories would all be different.